Written August 16th, 2013
Communication
It’s supposed to bring you closer
Fill the gaps left by distances
Let’s you share all your instances
Can’t be there in person
so you make the most of the
160 character limit
The possibilities are infinite
Use it to your advantage
Having all the conversations you can manage
So when does communication kill intimacy?
When does it invade a space so personal
that the feeling is gone?
Communication kills intimacy when
Constantly connected you stay
To everyone
And I mean everyone
Your mother your father
Your sisters your brothers
Best friend here, best friend there
Although you just saw them this morning
Or yesterday
and they’ll be home when you get there
Communication kills intimacy when
what they have to say is more important than the
time we spend
Sure we don’t spend a lot of time together
Once a month is it?
Just a day?
Something like that
Communication kills intimacy when
that conversation
Is more important than the one
We’re having now
Or this dinner we’re eating
Or this movie we’re watching
Communication kills intimacy when
you must seek out other connections
Because my presence isn’t enough
That the silences we share are tough
So you need to fill them with other stuff
What he said, what she said
Communication kills intimacy when
All that seems to matter more
Than what I’m saying now
Although countless times you vow
That it won’t happen again
it happens again
Sometime passes
And the reflection of the screen
Is back on your glasses
You hear what I say
But you’re not listening
The message screen on your eyes glistening
Communication kills intimacy when
I’m here and you’re not
Too busy concerned with the words of
someone else
that you can see whenever
you connect with them more often than me
they have that luxury
Of spending time with you on the regular
Where I do not
Communication kills intimacy when
I feel like asking for too much
When I thought I was being jealous
that your attention wasn’t all on me
“I’m not being fair, I’m too needy” I thought
And for a while I agreed
But as our distances grew
The longing did too
And I longed for the days
we could be together
Because they were so few
So when we got together
All my attention was on you
Because this time to me
was so precious
Whatever else could wait
Because soon you’d be gone
And I’d have to wait another month
To see you again
And what would my travels be
if I went to see you
or you came to see me
And all my time was spent
on everyone else
Because what’s the point of having me
physically
When I’m not there mentally
Why would I bother showing face
If constantly connected
I’m not even in the place
Communication kills intimacy so
I cut off my communication
because it can wait
to dedicate my attention
to who’s in front of my face
But when you don’t do the same
I feel like my value is not the same
As others who’s words on a screen
Are more important than the ones I speak
At the scene
